Boldly Go

I've had insomnia for 6 days and it's really knocked me off kilter. The first night I thought it was the ice tea I drank  at 10 PM. Third night, and two Benadryl later, I laid awake until 4:53 AM. The fifth night I thought "Okay, maybe we need a new bed. And he probably needs a c-pap machine". The sixth night? I just gave into it. I got up and tackled the large pile of ironing I'd ignored for a week. And when I finished that? I read. 

I opened my bible to this scripture:

"So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. 

Each day has enough trouble of its own."-Matthew 6:34

Hmmm. Jesus schooled me again.

We have lots of big decisions about our future going on right now. Exciting and scary at the same time. My husband and I have been planning. Putting pen to paper. Making lists. Checks and balances. Pros and Cons. This decision negates our retirement. My husband looked at me this weekend and said simply "If God means it to be it will be". And he's absolutely right. Only guess what? That's not good enough.  I'm an admittedly impatient short little round middle aged woman. Gasp. #truth. When I get something on my mind? Katie bar the door.  I want it to have been done six months prior. On a silver platter. Served to me. Anyone?

God's timing is His timing. Not ours. Often when we pray we are asking for God's blessing on our time table.  If we don't get a word? Well, I personally, can recount situations where my spirit knew I needn't proceed. But I did anyway. Shocker, I was left with a mess. 

How many times do we face decisions, of any kind, by googling, asking friends on Facebook, making check lists or dialoguing and processing? Hello?! All. Of. The. Time.. 

I have a theory. God keeps us up at night or closes doors or changes our plans so that we will ask Him. Seek His counsel. After all, He does know every single hair on our head. He knows our past our present and our future. We fail to remember He's got us in the palm of His hand. Amen?

Then I started thinking. Scary I know.  If 35% of this country can't sleep and uses sleeping medicine? How many people are missing out on conversations God desperately wants to have with them? Think about that. The enemy will do anything to make us slaves to this world. Because if we are in love with this world we won't want to loosen our grip on it. If we don't loosen our grip on the things of our life then we can't open our arms to Jesus. Amen? 

So last night my husband and I did what we should have done from the get go. We held hands and prayed. We asked God to tune our ears to His voice. We prayed for open doors on His time. We threw in a prayer of patience for me  :-).  And, honestly, that's all any of us can do. 

Boldly go before the King of the world. Ask Him to show you,  guide you, direct you. Then we wait. Wait for open doors. Wait for the provision to move forward in decisions. Without His directive there are no blessings...just sleepless nights and our own indecisiveness.

"If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you"~John 15:7