You would think I'd have slept like a log. Quiet room. Cool air conditioning. Drum roll please: no earplugs. Bliss right? Nope. I tossed and turned all night every night that he was gone.
I guess after 26 years of ending my night and starting my day with this man next to me my subconscious knew something was not quite right. My husband makes me feel safe. Protected. I know with him laying beside me I can rest peacefully (albeit with earplugs).
Likewise when I'm in step with Jesus? When I wake up and go to sleep having spent time with the Lord I feel protected. I feel taken care of. I literally can feel Jesus right there with me. He's listening to my thanksgivings, my requests, my inquiries.
If I'm being really honest? Well, when I'm not walking with God I usually have a cruddy day. If I forget my quiet time in the morning? Or when I'm too tired or busy to read my bible before my husband and I go to sleep? Those are the times I toss and turn through my daily life.
Sure, I'm always chatting with Jesus (in my head) throughout the day. I always thank Him as I turn off my bedside light. I know He's there. But when I don't spend time with Him? My days are most assuredly off. My "subconscious" knows the routine is out of whack.
What do your days and nights look like? Are floundering through your routines? Wrestling with sleep due to the racing thoughts in your head? Do you feel anxious rather than calm? Secure? Safe? When was the last time you stopped to be still? To get on your knees and talk to Him? When was the last time you held hands with your spouse and prayed?
Every single morning His mercies are new (Lamentations 3:22). Whatever happened yesterday? Jesus tells us the next day is a do over. We start brand new. That is a great big fat "Amen" in my book!
Rest easy tonight. Thank Him for the good. Praise Him for the mundane. Ask for forgiveness in the shortcomings. Rest in Him.
"Even when I walk the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and staff protect and comfort me"-Psalm 23:4
