When you've met Him face to face? Given it all to Him? What is there left to hide? No, really. If He has pulled you from the depths? Well, then, the veil has been lifted. Everything revealed. You are exposed. Fresh. Made new and whole in His presence. No secrets. No make believe. No more orchestrating what you think your life should be. No insecurities. You are who you are in Him.
I've never understood why people are hesitant to share their story. Their testimony. I could talk you cross eyed about what Christ has done for me. It's a topic I never tire of. Kind of like discovering the greatest product ever. You want everyone you meet to have it because you know first hand it works. It's a game changer. A life changer.
I used to keep my relationship with God in my back pocket. He was always with me everywhere I went. But I only pulled Him out when I needed Him. If you asked to see Him I would happily oblige. Possibly be able to give you some scripture. But I wasn't 100% reliant on Him yet.
In the past decade the Lord has become the basis for everything in my life. The more I studied the scriptures the more everything in life made sense. My life story started to make sense even in the middle of the senseless.The more I relied on Him the more I heard Him whispering to me. Eventually I began waiting for the whispers to guide my reliance.
This past summer, one morning while at the beach, I looked at the ocean and literally said out loud "okay, Lord what now? The girls are grown what now?" As clear as day I heard in my spirit "write about Me. Tell our story". I thought about it for several weeks. Prayed about it every morning. At one point I felt like I would suffocate. He wouldn't let up. "Write". I mentioned it to my husband and he said "I think that's a great idea". I still didn't do it. A few weeks later I mentioned it to a dear friend. As plain as day she said "He's calling you to obedience". And I believe she was correct.
If I write from my own accord it means absolutely nothing. A mere fleshly opinion. One in a million that you will read on any given day. And quite frankly why should my opinion matter? I am no one of earthly importance. But if I am still? If I am obedient? Then I write what He has put on my heart through prayer. It conveys a lesson He wishes to be taught. A blessing.
God is in the business of repairing. Not tearing. There are certain aspects of our life that will always remain sacred. Never to be shared. But with my families permission I have been able to convey in writing what He is saying to me. If I approach it from my flesh there is no transparency. The message is orchestrated. Contrived. It benefits no one. It has no merit. No purpose, really.
But if I am still. Watch the sunrise. Read my scripture for the day. Offer up to Him my inequities & thanksgivings? He shows up every time through the written word.
God is in the business of repairing. Not tearing. There are certain aspects of our life that will always remain sacred. Never to be shared. But with my families permission I have been able to convey in writing what He is saying to me. If I approach it from my flesh there is no transparency. The message is orchestrated. Contrived. It benefits no one. It has no merit. No purpose, really.
But if I am still. Watch the sunrise. Read my scripture for the day. Offer up to Him my inequities & thanksgivings? He shows up every time through the written word.
"Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly"-Colossians 3:16
